![]() ![]() ![]() “do you… still think of her? am i overbearing?” you choked back a sob. please let me make it up to you.” you could hear the trembling in his voice and your heart ached for him too, despite the situation. tears started to stain your pillow even after you thought you’ve cried your eyes out enough earlier. You tensed up as you felt him hastily wrap his arms around you and rest his head against your back. You couldn’t even spare him a glance as you wordlessly crawled under the sheets, nearly falling off the bed as you tried to scoot away from him as far as your bed allowed. though when you finally walked out of the bathroom with such empty eyes, he’s at a loss for words once more. he sat by the edge of the bed, chewing on his bottom lip nervously as he racked his brain on how he could make up for what he said. ![]() You quickly washed up but he could hear your quiet sniffles through the door. he was praying for you to say something– cuss him out, shout in frustration, anything. You let out a tired sigh, quietly making your way into your bedroom. i was wrong,” he pleaded, voice now softer. i just- i said it to make myself feel better. his heart sunk at the way you ever so slightly shuffled away from him. Of course you didn’t want him to leave, but he was out of line for even comparing you to someone you both knew hurt him terribly. “if you’d rather have that than deal with me, you’re free to go.” your voice wavered but words cut through just as sharp. “your ex never asked for attention because she was getting that from other people behind your back,” you mumbled monotonously, fists clenched. mentally, he was cussing himself for even bringing that up just so that he could justify his actions, or in this case lack thereof. He opened his mouth to say something that could mend the situation but he came up with nothing. ![]() it was your turn to hide your face away, not wanting him to see the fresh warm tears that stained your cheeks. Kuroo’s eyes widened in realization as he quickly turned to you. you breathed a small “what?” at a loss for words. you stared at his back with wide tear-filled eyes in disbelief. You stumbled back, quickly retracting your hand and clutching it to your chest. “nari never nagged me this much and i was just the same to her,” he mumbled under his breath, the words slipped before his mind could process them. tears threatened to spill as you hastily take a step forward, trying to reach out for him. this is our relationship after all,” your voice strained to get the words out. “i’m not making this about me, i just- i was just asking for a little bit of time. “are you really though? all i see is you trying to make everything about you!” his back was facing you, his tall figure hunched over the kitchen counter, yet you didn’t miss the harsh glance he threw your way. but you’ve been so dodgy with me lately!” you flung your arms in the air exasperated. “i’m trying to understand kuroo, i really am. that frightened you, especially when you felt like he was slipping through your grasp and there was nothing you could do. he had his whole life ahead of him and he could have anything – anyone he wanted. he’s young, well accomplished, charismatic.the recurring theme i see in kuroo angst is him not having enough time for you because of his career.maybe it’s because subconsciously i feel like i don’t deserve love and i- yk what nvm. he’s literally my favorite idk why i keep hurting myself with these. ![]()
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